Archive for the 'Life, and other things' Category

Open apology to my daughter.

July 10, 2013

God blessed my wife and I with a wonderful daughter (Alana.)  She has always delighted us with her quick wit, her intelligence and her love.  I have just been made fully aware of an area in my relationship with my daughter where I have failed.  (She posted this message on Tumblr – read if you have not)   My son (Matthew) posted a very thoughtful and open CONFESSION to his own failure and I will try not to repeat what he said, but it does apply to my own failure to my daughter.

I cannot make any excuses for not reacting in a more positive manner when Alana complained about pain in her joints and other areas of her body.  I should have been more attuned to her voice and not my own inner voice and the voice of her teacher(s).  Like my son, I am very introverted and try to analyze every situation, that does not help when someone like Alana is hurting.  Empathy is not one of my gifts and I really need to try to empathize more.  I am guilty of “blowing off” most of Alana’s complaints for all the reasons Matthew mentioned in his confession.  When you were younger and active I did think (wrongly) it was “growing pains”.  As you got older and spent more time in more artistic and less active endeavors I did blame your pain on your gaining weight, I tried to relate it to my own over-weight pains and aches rather than listening to and believing you.  I had no way of knowing the extent of your pain and I tried to use my own tolerance as a guide to your pain – something I should never have done.

I also have no excuse for not trying harder to find out what was wrong with you as I had very adequate health insurance provide and it was available but I chose not to use it to try to find out why you were in pain.

To sum this up, I am very sorry I did not listen to you, empathize and react correctly to your pain.  I am sorry I listened to your teacher(s) when they said you were just complaining. I am sorry I have failed you in this very important area and ask your forgiveness.  I cannot change the past, I can try to be a better listener and more attuned to your and other people’s suffering and pain in the future.  I love you very much and want you to know that I do and always will.


Manufactured CRISIS and the loss of HOPE.

January 11, 2013

I think that the reason for more violence and suicides, especially in young people, is because out government and media have conspired to kill all HOPE!

One CRISIS after another – environment disasters, financial disasters, health risks/disasters, weather disasters, wars and so on. This seems to be a great way to CONTROL the masses, keep them in or at near hysteria, don’t let them relax. People who are being controlled this way will:

1. Jump on the bandwagon of the current CRISIS wave the banners and yell for action.
2. Go on with their lives and try not to let the CRISIS change them.
3. Give up and find some escape, drugs, alcohol, or some faster form of suicide.
4. Succumb to mental illness and make mass killing a way to get back CONTROL.

As I said, this is all about CONTROL. The media keeps things in a state of CRISIS to sell their papers or programs. The politicians use CRISIS to manipulate the media and the public to do what they want. Business has always done this – the whole idea of most SALES is a CRISIS – “it is the end of the year” CRISIS – buy our stuff! Even the churches use CRISIS to manipulate – “You are going to hell!” – CRISIS. It is a very old form of mass CONTROL and manipulation. What the problem is now, with 24/7 news and the internet, it has become so rampant that HOPE has become the primary victim.

Since the death of HOPE is what leads to more mass killings, alcohol/drug abuse and suicides what can we do? There is only one source of HOPE and that is the Blessed Hope found in the Bible. “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.” (John 3:16 ESV) God sent his son to die for us so we could have HOPE! We need to stop falling for the world’s CRISIS oriented way of living and live in the PEACE that passes all understanding that only comes from trusting in Jesus Christ.

Another vehicle added to our fleet.

August 24, 2011

Well, I got the bug bad to get another Ford Ranger before they quit making them – looked at the new 2011 Rangers and yes they have some great deals but the best deals are on sticks with loads of options.  If I had bought new I did not need $600 a month payments – so I was looking at what was getting traded in.  Found a 37K mile 2005 – one owner – very clean super cab.  Local dealer $3,000 below average retail and they took my 163K 1995 on trade – I think I got a reasonable deal but then you always feel like you did not so really – it does not matter.

2005 Ford Ranger - Super Cab

Looks pretty good and runs great!

I have never had a black vehicle before, almost every other color but this is the first black vehicle.   I usually would not want a black car or truck because they are hard to keep clean – but hey – I am retired so I should have more time – right?

2005 Ford Ranger - driver's side.

Driver's side of black Ranger